In my last blog I talked about forgiving others. I stressed how we can’t praise God until we have forgiven someone or asked them to forgive us. What I left out was forgiving yourself. I’m finding this is the hardest level of forgiveness for me. If I can be honest, well it’s my blog so I can be. I blame myself everyday for a particular situation and I can’t seem to shake it. I ask God how I made a decision that would change the very course of my life? Why did I ignore all of the warning signs? After a flood of thoughts, I end up mad at myself. All the while I thought I was upset with someone else but it was me I had the problem with! Hebrews 12:15 says,
“Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;”.
I have started to become bitter toward myself. I’m struggling with the act of sin and the consequences that came with it. The enemy slowly drew me away. I thought I was free because I didn’t have any ill feelings toward the other person, but I had turned those feelings toward myself. Bitterness began to take root and my soul was being defiled. So I’ve finally identified the problem, now what? Jesus answered this for me in Matthew 26:28,
“For this is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.”
Jesus’ blood covers my sins and washes them away. I can forgive myself because Jesus has already died for the remission of my sins. I read an article earlier and it basically said either the blood covers or it doesn’t. There is no in between. Jesus died and rose with all power. I know that through his blood I am forgiven, I can forgive others and most importantly; I can forgive myself. We can’t get into heaven without forgiving others right? I believe if the latter is true, then we can’t make it into heaven without forgiving ourselves! If you put forth the effort, God will send his power to complete the work. Be blessed!
The Bible App has been pouring into me the last couple weeks. It addresses different issues with the word of God! The topic I have chosen for the next few days is forgiveness. Jesus says in Matthew 5:23-24, “Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee; Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.” This means before I can come to God with an offering of praise or worship, I have to make sure I have no ill feelings toward anyone. We often overlook issues that we have with people. We say things like, “I’m not the one with an issue, it’s them”. Then we go before God as if everything is fine. We should have such reverence for God that even if we haven’t done anything wrong, we go to that person and offer an apology just so we can be sure that God will receive our gift. After we’ve done that, we can truly praise and worship God with a pure heart. Unforgiveness can weigh heavy on your heart. If you feel some type of way when you see a person, chances are you are holding on to something they’ve done or you’ve done to them. We can miss what God has in store for us because we haven’t forgiven a person or haven’t asked someone to forgive us. Jesus died so that we could make it to heaven. On the cross, his blood forgave us. No one is asking you to physically die when you forgive or ask for forgiveness. It may humble us but I’d rather be humble in Heaven than stubborn in Hell. God, I thank you for this process and the growth that’s coming along with it. Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me. It may not be the easiest of task but I want to be able to give you an untainted praise. In Jesus’ name. Amen! Be blessed blog family!
I started blogging as a way to get things off my chest. Things I couldn’t necessarily say to people in conversation. So my notepad has become victim to all my thoughts and feelings. Have you ever looked at a situation in your personal life and thought how did I get here? Is this a bad dream that I have yet to wake up from? Where are the cameras?! My friends have to be playing a joke on me! Ok, you guys can yell cut at anytime now! Then you come to the realization that this practical joke is no joke at all; this has become your own episode of TrueLife. We, well I have made choices that have led to an unpleasant season of my life. I often wonder if I would’ve done anything different. I was blessed with an amazing gift, but since the gift was out of order, I am paying a price for it. I ask God for strength and I get the second wind I need. I can honestly say through this I have become much stronger! God has kept my mind when I thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown. I heard God say that he would never leave me or forsake me. Choices literally shape our reality! Romans 6:23 says:
For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.
Our sin(bad choices) will cause things to die, decay and fall apart. The wage we get when we are out of God’s will is death or separation from God. When we stay in the will and make positive choices we save ourselves from headaches etc lol but most importantly, we get the gift of eternal life. I had a totally different blog to post, but I felt God telling me to share this. I can’t stress enough how important our choices are! Be blessed and remember to choose Christ!